04/18/2025
I’m going on a week long retreat that starts next weekend that’s for first responders with PTSD. I’m getting really anxious and all these bad memories are flooding back from my time as a firefighter just thinking about going to this retreat.
I decided to go on a bike ride to try and clear my mind. I was emotionally drained on my ride and pretty full of rage. Anyway, I ended up having a personal record on every segment of the ride. I guess I should go ride when I’m really upset more often??? I was going between wanting to scream and wanting to cry, yet I crushed it!
I really like my bike. I have a love/hate relationship riding on roads because I also get freaked out being in such a vulnerable position with cars, but I try as best I can to ride only on quiet country roads.