01/12/2018
Today, I'm attending the first day of three days at an amazing event in London. We were asked to be vulnerable and share in our groups and with our followers, about something that would take us out of our comfort zone. Well, if you know me, being vulnerable is one of the things I've always struggled with. Honestly, when Lenka told us to do this, I wanted to sit on my phone and scroll through Instagram and pretend that I was actually doing the exercise. I've been told many times that that's the way to grow my business and tribe but, still, I choose to hide. I was even told in my last relationship that I wasn't vulnerable enough! (OUCH)! But, he was right. Wow! I can't believe I just admitted he was right! Hopefully, he'll never see this post and I don't have to hear him brag about being right.
People often think that since I'm so "composed", that I have my s**t together. Ha! Funny. That is nowhere near the truth! Why do I laugh you ask? Because the last thing I have is my s**t together! Matter of fact, I stepped away from my business for over a year because I was depressed. Xanax, therapy, and alcohol all became my best friends. I was constantly asked "where've you been", "what's going on with Thoughts Become Outfits"? My reply was simple, nothing. I didn't feel that I had anything to give or contribute anymore. I was hiding. I was ashamed. I felt like a fraud. I mean, how could I have this women's empowerment business teaching women how to love themselves and be confident, when I was a complete wreck. Anxiety and depression took over my life for awhile. The limiting beliefs started creeping in. I'm not good enough, my story isn't dramatic enough, why would anyone hire me, who am I to give advice, I don't have any expertise and so on. Every single day and night, these thoughts took over. I was paralyzed. I didn't see any value in myself.
After going through all of this, I realized how important my vision and a message is to get out to the world. I never wanted to feel like this again and I couldn't imagine going through it alone. Self- love is SO important. If you don't love yourself, a breakup, losing your job, or any negative situation, can take over your life and take you down a dark path that you didn't even know existed. You won't know what to do in order to get back on track. You'll feel completely hopeless. Next thing you know, you're having the same limiting beliefs that I had.
I always prayed for strength and I feel that is why I sometimes go through some of these things. You get what you ask for, right? I go through these things to come out on top. Bigger and better than ever, so I can share with women who don't have the strength to do it on their own. I can say to them, " I've been there, done that, let me show how to get back on track to living your best life". I'm ready to be global & step out of my comfort zone! This is just the beginning.
If you actually read all of this, thank you! Thank you for allowing me to be vulnerable and share with you. I hope you continue to support me and spread the word that I am back!
If you feel that you know some other women that need to hear my message, please invite them to this group and ask them to like my page. I have lots of exciting things ahead and you don't want to miss out! My official relaunch is March 1st!
- Tiffany
