10/12/2026
My Beef with the Beach.
The last time I was at the beach was in 2019. We had just walked through one of the most horrible and traumatic experiences of our life. One that demanded justice for one member of my family, another that had my husband contemplating choices that could have ended up with him being in prison. But that's another story.
I didn't realize I had beef with the beach.
There have been a couple opportunities to come over the last few years, and I haven't wanted to go. Which is ironic after living in Hawaii for five years and being at the beach almost daily.
Well, we came.
And here I was again, face to face with the waves, toes in the sand, watching the waves crash along the shore.
And I realized it was a painful place for me.
Being on the beach was actually really, really painful.
I couldn't wait. I was counting down the minutes till it was time to go.
I'm a big believer that the Lord can heal without bringing us back through traumatic circumstances. But I also believe sometimes He allows you to see things so you can face them head on.
Then day two, I started with prayer.
"All right, Lord, what is in my heart? Why is this a problem?"
The horrible family trauma we went through in 2019? We never got to see justice.
Things progressed to the courts, but then COVID shut down the entire world. And we became a court case on a long docket.
Nothing ever came of it.
I actually had to remind myself that I have surrendered this situation to the Lord.
Sometimes we go through things in our life where we don't see justice. We know that we're in the right, or we know that we were the victim of something.
God is a God of justice, and I believe that He wants justice in every situation.
But I believe He wants surrender from us even more.
And so, as I sit here this morning, I'm just reminding myself that instead of justice or revenge, I've chosen surrender.
And I'm so thankful to the Lord for bringing me back to this spot as a reminder to continue to surrender, even when I don't understand, and to continue to forgive, even when it's hard, no matter what was done to me or my family.
Hebrews 10:23